Oh my fucking god. I’m not pregnant nor will I be for a long time. Leave me the fuck alone with that bullshit. If I was I’ll let you know. I’m tired of you assuming the worst of me. CHILL THE FUCK OUT WITH THAT SHIT!

Martin Luther King, Jr. once said, “Change does not roll in on the wheels of inevitability, but comes through continuous struggle and so we must straighten our backs and work for our freedom. A man can’t ride you unless your back is bent.” This is right you can’t expect things to be easy for you along your journey through life if you always allow the “man” to keep your back bent where you aren’t allowed to walk upright. People will always try and hold you back. They will try and make you feel as if you can’t succeed in this world and truth is you can succeed as long as you put your mind and soul into something. “Be the change you want to see in the world”, said Gandhi. These little things will keep you on your path to your success and you must not allow others to pull you down any longer. As always if people want to be in your life allow them to be however don’t allow them to tear you down. Keep your mind, heart, soul and body in the right area in order to move on to bigger and better things.

Last night before I left for my usual dancing night, my mother and I had a heart to heart. She and I talked about how I’m afraid to be loved. This is true I am afraid to be loved. I’m afraid that I’m not good enough for anyone but God. I have given my heart to a guy who has hurt me, but you have to be hurt in order to move on in life. Now I just sit around and play a guys game. I will play guys like they play us females so I will no longer get hurt.

There’s never anybody better than me. Nobody that will understand you like I do. So here’s a song for you….
” Don’t waste your time
Looking over your shoulder
Those loves from the past
Ain’t a gettin’ no closer

When I look at my future
You’re all I can see
So honey, don’t go loving on
Nobody but me

Nobody but me
Gonna love you like you ought to be loved on
Nobody but me
Gonna cry if you up and leave

Now you can do what you want to
But I’m asking pretty please
Honey don’t go loving on
Nobody but me

I took my time
To tell you how I feel
Just because I took so long
Don’t mean that it isn’t real
Now I ain’t got no diamond
But I’m down on my knees
So honey don’t go loving on
Nobody but me

Nobody but me
Gonna love you like you ought to be loved on
Nobody but me
Gonna cry if you up and leave
Now you can do what you want to
But I’m asking pretty please
Honey don’t go loving on
Nobody but me
Nobody but me
Gonna love you like you ought to be loved on
Nobody but me
Gonna cry if you up and leave

Now you can do what you want to
But I’m asking pretty please
Honey don’t go loving on
Nobody but me
Don’t go loving on
Nobody but me”

Just remember Nobody But Me

I’ve never been so hurt in my life. The things that you find out from your supposed friends. I’m really hurt.

Have you ever felt as if you do everything wrong? Do you ever hide all your pain behind a smile? Thisis the story of my life. All i ever do is fuck up and become a disappointment to everybody. My mother thinks im a bad child and she told my sister that she has to “keep an eye on me” what mother says that. Look i know im not the best kid but at least im not pregnant or constantly doing drugs all the time. So fucking what i have four tattoos, and ive had sex well im just a normal teenager that has a different outlook on life.

So my mom has just informed me that she bets that I will get killed or die before graduation. Okay let’s male her bet come true. I can’t do this anymore. I’m so beyond done right now. Lord please take me away I’m done with this life and I’m done with her. Ehy are you so mad that I go out and have a good time? I’m sorry I have a life. Fuck it I’m done. Goodbye.

When you live in my boots for as long as I have then you can tell me how to live my life. I’m done with you just assuming I have this “perfect” life when I don’t. Your not 18 and worried about paying bills, having food in your stomach, or even being able to go and do things. Sometimes I wish you could understand where I come from, but you can’t. I want to have the life I was supposed to have, you know the one without adult worries. You see we can’t always get what we want, we can’t have the perfect life, we can’t have the perfect relationship and we most definitely can’t have the perfect body. So again I repeat when you live in my boots you can tell me how to live my life.